{"id":2527,"date":"2026-10-03T09:36:28","date_gmt":"2026-10-03T07:36:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/vdgg.art.pl\/portal\/?page_id=2527"},"modified":"2026-10-03T09:53:09","modified_gmt":"2026-10-03T07:53:09","slug":"32-all-that-might-have-been","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/vdgg.art.pl\/portal\/teksty\/teksty-oryginalne\/teksty-ph-solo\/32-all-that-might-have-been\/","title":{"rendered":"32. &#8230;all that might have been&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" id=\"gora\">In overview the light expired<br>and with it went the narrative he\u2019d always craved.<br>She\u2019d told him once she\u2019d give him<br>everything he ever needed or his heart desired&#8230;<br>now the darkness descends, that\u2019s the gift she gave.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(One of them is for the chop,<br>one of them assured to flame,<br>one of them is bound to drop<br>and they\u2019ll not meet again)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So the last time that he saw her<br>he didn\u2019t know quite where to look,<br>taking it for granted she was on her way&#8230;<br>there was no future calling,<br>no winning tricks remained in play.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It was the last time that they\u2019d meet<br>and even though he knew this was goodbye for good<br>he couldn\u2019t tell her,<br>just couldn\u2019t find the words to say.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">What\u2019s done is done,<br>but nothing\u2019s really over<br>till she walks away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He never wanted to belong,<br>longed only to behold.<br>He felt so strongly all along<br>he never could stand to be told.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He played his hand out flippantly<br>but couldn\u2019t hide the tell<br>his love was free and consequentially<br>the story\u2019s priced to sell.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And as for him he\u2019s not quite sure<br>he\u2019s worked his passage here entirely blamelessly.<br>She told him once his fate<br>could turn around upon a sixpence<br>but the light\u2019s gone down, time and tide is up<br>and the money shot\u2019s no longer there to see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now the darkness comes<br>and that\u2019s the only thing he\u2019ll ever get for free.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There was nowhere special to go<br>and so they drove round in circles,<br>hoping somehow to channel the flow<br>of a night that\u2019s frozen in tempo:<br>slow, slow, slow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The Piper smile plays on her lips<br>and holds him in an iron grip<br>that promises so much if he\u2019ll just stay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Inklings, darling, dark inklings are arcing<br>through the links between the lines.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And caught up in the moment<br>he\u2019s so eager to receive the gift she gives<br>but her smile does not betray<br>what she might give away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He never wanted to belong,<br>his hopes were all on hold;<br>before too long he was been and gone.<br>He never wanted to be told,<br>he never wanted to be told.<br>The story\u2019s set to stay unsold.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Home,<br>he can\u2019t get home.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This might have happened<br>and all that might have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">If this hadn\u2019t happened<br>all that might not have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This might have happened<br>and all that might have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Inklings, darling, inklings of the darkening times<br>are running through the runes she\u2019s redesigned.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Inklings, darling, dark inklings<br>are arcing in the space behind her eyes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He likes this town,<br>the air is clear, the crime discreet<br>and he could fit in here a treat<br>someday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He likes this place,<br>the streets well swept, the slates all clean,<br>he\u2019ll fit in with a fresh routine<br>someday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He\u2019d buy a suit,<br>he\u2019d clip his nails and comb his hair,<br>he\u2019ll fit in here for sure, he swears<br>someday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He likes this town,<br>the air is clear, the crime discreet<br>and he could fit in here a treat<br>someday.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And there it was, he\u2019d met his match,<br>caught in distraction as she snatched<br>the keepsake from his hand and she\u2019s away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And the Piper Smile\u2019s beginning to erase identity<br>and the Piper Smile says she\u2019s not really here<br>and nor is he.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Be careful what you wish for<br>in case it breaks your heart.<br>How artlessly he gasped in consternation<br>as he pricked his thumb upon love\u2019s poison dart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He filtered out the static,<br>he battened down the hatch<br>but an itch came crawling all along the surface of his calm demeanour<br>and he\u2019s powerless to hold back from the scratch.<br>and his temper\u2019s triggered, there\u2019s no safety catch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fresh out of the starting gate,<br>bent on the shadows,<br>bent on a night of escapade.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Out of the corner of his eye<br>something once bright now dim:<br>an alien clock is locked onto him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So he keeps his attention close,<br>cloaked deep in silence,<br>knowing that any fear that he shows will quickly have him ripped apart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Could it be just a game? No,<br>he keeps a measured tread up although<br>right now they call his name, oh,<br>how\u2019d they ever know that? And so<br>now they\u2019re blocking the path.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And he\u2019s in trouble here, he already knows he\u2019s in trouble here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">What\u2019s done has been done.<br>Hung to dry in Kabuki-cho,<br>left for dead beside the Golden Gai<br>as his head explodes with treasure trove,<br>no-one knows just what truth he has come here to hide<br>as he\u2019s spied in the red light zone,<br>legs are spread behind the neon signs.<br>There were threads of gold, the stories told<br>but no-one knows if he\u2019s ever going to make it out alive.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Was it just bad timing or some fundamental show of disrespect<br>that\u2019s brought him here?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hung to dry in Kabuki-cho,<br>he\u2019s made his bed beside the Golden Gai<br>as his head explodes the question\u2019s posed,<br>no-one knows just what truth he has come here to buy.<br>Wonder why he choked, he was in full flow<br>what he said denied his heartfelt cries<br>and instead he knows his cover\u2019s blown;<br>but no-one shows quite how useless the excuse is this time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">If you step into somebody\u2019s house<br>don\u2019t be too eager to assume you can keep on your shoes.<br>Better take off those shoes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Drifting through the different cultures,<br>one licked finger in the air<br>to check what\u2019s changed and what\u2019s unchanging&#8230;<br>to some surprise the circle\u2019s squared.<br>Deep down below the currency<br>a current runs of which he\u2019s unaware.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Can\u2019t turn about,<br>might not get out this time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He plays it devil-may-care<br>but he\u2019s not going anywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Washed up from some Absolute Elsewhere,<br>of what was what he had no clue.<br>Whistling in the dark to keep his spirits up,<br>he hadn\u2019t thought the whole thing through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hustling to the darker side of town,<br>suddenly cut adrift from the life he knew,<br>he\u2019s doing his best to keep his profile in the shadows<br>but the spotlight shines out of the blue.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Taken for a German,<br>he was taken for a ride,<br>he was bundled in the taxi<br>and he stumbled out the other side.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The rumpled sheets are soiled<br>and dawn\u2019s boiled up in a fog of poison spores.<br>If he wanted to give her anything at all it\u2019s too late now.<br>She\u2019s ready to open him up,<br>she\u2019s ready to teach him a lesson.<br>Time to be slow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Clearly, how the story unfolds<br>here and now could be sweeter.<br>She moves her thumb to the front of his throat.<br>He lies stock still underneath her,<br>slow, slow, slow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It had seemed like a pretty fool-proof plan<br>but this time one and one don\u2019t add up to two.<br>Outside the cone of light the time\u2019s got warped<br>and the chain of logic\u2019s come unglued.<br>Whistling in the dark he goes to pieces&#8230;<br>he never thought the whole thing through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He never wanted to belong,<br>longed only to behold.<br>He felt so strongly all along<br>he never wanted to be told.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">And he can\u2019t get home.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Be careful what you wish for<br>it\u2019s breaking like a seventh wave.<br>He stands stock still in dread anticipation,<br>for after all the wishes are washed away,<br>for after all the wishes we\u2019re washed away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Taking the back road to the airport<br>wasn\u2019t such a bright idea.<br>He could have come so badly unstuck<br>but his luck held out and he\u2019s in the clear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This might have happened<br>and all that might have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ascud below, before him,<br>the landscape slowly flows.<br>It follows that he\u2019ll follow<br>however it unfolds.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">If this hadn\u2019t happened<br>all that might not have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">His head among the passing clouds<br>holds on to what he\u2019s got<br>unable to remember what<br>it was that he forgot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This might have happened<br>and all that might have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Not for the first time,<br>nor probably the last,<br>he\u2019s diving deep down, all his senses overblown<br>in the transit zone.<br>He\u2019s all alone this time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There\u2019s not a moment to waste<br>and yet he\u2019s frozen on the spot<br>by his own self-doubt,<br>can\u2019t turn about,<br>might not get out this time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">One telephone call\u2019s his right<br>but while he\u2019s ordering his thoughts into a thread<br>the line goes dead<br>and he\u2019s not headed anywhere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So the last time that he saw her<br>he didn\u2019t know quite where to look,<br>his stomach churned under the basilisk gaze<br>and so he\u2019s burning until he turns away.<br>and still he burns until she turns away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Until he turns away,<br>until he turns<br>she stays.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(And the story isn\u2019t done<br>until the hook\u2019s been played.)<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"alignleft size-full\"><a href=\"#gora\"><img decoding=\"async\" width=\"127\" height=\"51\" 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